1.

Since you left I have been drinking coffee from your cup,

I am frightened by all the arrogant view point, ( nata- can be the place for looking down)

I stack foamy dishes close to each other near the sink and

I leave them. I have got the habit to be indifferent since you left.

Since you left I have been driving your car,

And like you I push the horn selflessly ( Nata- I think she means vigorously),

I got obsessed with insomnia, hand shaking

And I began to hate immensely the sentiments ( emotions).

Since you left, I sleep exactly on the side

Where you slept in our bed and the distance

Which separates us for a long time, as you told me,

I shorten with my thought and make our pain sleep.

Since you left I am bothered by quiet fears,

That somebody marches(steps) in the house and hides from me,

I sometimes think( I don’t exaggerate), I am so getting destroyed,

That I don’t even understand it. I got tired, I became the eyes.

Since you left the change of the weather is

Conditional and the winds blow in our house,

My eyes soon will begin to melt into tears

And they ( eyes) would not hide the tears anywhere.

Since you left I carry your knife in my pocket and

Swallows are late to return to me,

I find it difficult to believe that I am always ill to some reason

And your black raibans don’t suit me.

(nata- I don’t know the word, must be some piece of cloth, I will find out)

Since you left I am two, I think so

And also, I am the sum of this world simplicities,

There, where there is loneliness and a distance,

I am not able, forgive me! I cannot look back!

And I wait for you who is drenched with the smell of massacre,

The silence servant of your life and death,

You left an unread newspaper on the table

And now it is waiting untouched for you.

I also know that, that you see our room in your dreams,

On which the moon shines with the modest light,

I sit and I think when you find my footsteps,

The water drips from my hair and I wear your dressing gown.

Since you left the whole universe has changed

And my paths are invaded by all impudent ( people),

As for me, I simply admit and make you happy,

I fell in love more with you since you left.

 

2.

I can see,

Angels are falling from the sky,(heaven)

Careful!

The deaths have the habit to bustle about nearby!

You and I will survive. The earth is so cold

I cannot give you to it, your life is mine.

No,

Don’t stop near dead body silently.

Be careful!

The death may lure (decoy) you quietly,

I will come in your dreams like a desired guest,

As a whisper of the forgotten spring.

I can see the abandoned houses are burning,

I can see,

The mothers, whose children are dead, are crying,

Every morning while waiting for you I rejuvenate

And every night in my loneliness I get older.

I can see,

The boys in greatcoats are dying,

The river is floating around the minefield,

Somebody is falling,

Somebody is running and is wounded,

Don’t look back!

Don’t stop!

Keep walking!

3.

God, forgive my womanly weakness,

Leave my pains in my own dreams,

God,

Fill the hungry precipices (abyss),

And forgive me the instant ( second heartfelt wishes.

God, bread my empty bed

And return the one who I will never be bored with,

Gossips turned their eyes to me shamelessly,

Then the sun comes and marries my dreams.

4.

Come in,

Give your greatcoat to the night,

And tiptoe to the bed you yearned for,

In sorrow I too wasted my joyful tear,(tear of happiness)

And I stretched out to you my shaking hand so that you don’t fall down.

Come in. My lips are still hot(burning, fervent)

And insomnia- incurable more than consumption,

When you survive bullets and ghosts,

The smell of cotton is more sweet in the long night.

Come in. Tell “no” to the black and dark memories.

I will quietly hang on you icons and amulets charmed by me,

Don’t think about those for whom you dug with your own hands

 

the earth in the brothers’ cemetery yesterday.

Don’t think about those you were not able to save,

Who will be remembered only by God and the storm,

Trust me, I will show you the dream which have never existed,

Perhaps somehow I can make you love life again.

Come. I will leak like a dog all your injuries(wounds),

And I will fight in your eyes with the raging storms,

And if sincerity will return to your smile,

I will count one happy day as thousand.

Come in.

The cursed war would not reach our house,

Neither torture,

Nor hunger,

Shooting,

Fights,

Alas, let the eternity( nata -or pitch-dark) take my body,

Let the earth become my husband, if you are not next to me.

My arms are firm trench for you,

At night and day,

Every morning , until every morning,

Stop for a second,

If the pains made you tired,

Let yourself give to the reliable trench.

Come in.

Your greatcoat smeared in blood,

I love it the same way as I love the smell of your rough skin,

Sleep calmly, I will guard you the entire night,

I will hide your sigh carefully in my chest pocket.

Come in.

The fire turned into ashes long ago,

And my golden colour ear ring reached the pillow,

The others have left, they were here, but they are not any more,

But you returned and are looking at me quietly.

Come in.