Decider/Interrupter/The one (who) cut off of words
They laugh with me my laughters
they laugh they enjoy
I don't have thoughts in my head today
They have not yet woken up [got up early in the morning] ...
I think it is morning
it has started to dawn
And that exactly is the reason
for the heart to become calm
and this sweet beat
good [beat] that spreads
I laugh with myself... for I know well
that I have not become accustomed to this smile
that walks itself around through a poem and a dance
laughing with me ... exiting me like a wife with the husband
like lovers forever/eternally/always
I know I have not become accustomed to this state of joy and
eagerness/passion/enthusiasm
that encourages by day and night
to follow the style/way/manner of the leader of singing every day
... to follow the pleasures of the world
So I decided ...
to cut off of words of joy and belief (or: I interrupted / the words of joy
etc. Or: I was cut off / of words)
of love and religion
words to make the revenge of the servant fade away
from the life in the world
words to win the wars in the hearts
as well as the wars within / civil wars.
My word is just suffering, [it] is worries (My only word is suffering, worries)
So I prefer the old way ...
thoughts not to be written.